Conviction

You know that feeling that you get while you’re reading my diary entries. The feeling that your being attacked. The feeling that other readers are going to perceive you as a monster or that I’m making you "look bad". Well it’s called conviction. Its the same feeling you get when you’re sitting in church and you feel as if the preacher is telling your story. The very same feeling that you get when you feel guilty except, I’m not to sure you understand what guilt feels like.

And I say that because no matter how much you complain and argue that I’m making you out to be someone you’re not, you countinue to make the same mistakes over and over and over again. You relive those situations in your mind and tell yourself that you did the right thing so when it’s told from a different point of view, you can’t seem to fathom that this is the real you. You read these posts and your skin begins to boil because you can’t take the truth. You hate to admit that you’re a two faced son of a b*tch. You live two lives yet in this one you’re far from perfect. In this one you’re the man will people warn there daughters about. The man you’ll one day warn your daughter about.

So the next time you read one of my entries I hope you’ll keep in mind that this is who you are. What I’ve documented is true. However instead of rage, let conviction get the best of you.

With Conviction,

Daph the Blogger