It's been a while, and wildly enough I never thought I'd be back in this place where I felt safe enough to write after being asked not to...

I used to love swimming. I used to love rushing down to the pool on a hot summer day hoping the water was cold enough to cool us off but...

Wildly Enough, I am the most at peace than I have ever been. The most calm, the most level headed. The most complete and that for me is...

You ever experience something so often that you stopped being shocked when it happens? It almost becomes second nature to you. You begin...

The other day I was looking for a piece of information and instead of asking him about it for the thousandth time, I decided to type a...

Healing is hard. Pushing myself to grow is hard. Being anything other than sad is hard. This whole freaking experience is just hard. I...

Lately I’ve realized that I haven’t been doing enough to get myself "back to normal" or whatever my new normal is supposed to be. I...

I went to see my OB for the first time since AB’s passing and all she could tell me was "I’m sorry , I don’t know why this happened to...

It has officially been 11 days since my world got turned upside down and I still have so many questions. What did I do wrong? Where did...

I recently lost my best friend. The person who I have depended on to be there every time I call. The person who has been through every...

The more people mention how they feel about me being pregnant with a second child, the more justified I feel about my decision not to...

S is for "Single Mother". S is for “Secrets” S is for the mystery you’ll never "Solve” S is for whatever I "Say" it’s for. But most...

The worst part of losing a baby is that your body doesn’t know it. It doesn’t understand that it is constantly reminding you of your...

Warning ! This is a moment of transparency! Would it be terrible of me to say that for the last couple of days I have been craving AB’s...

There’s this new ride that I cant seem to get off of lately and it’s called grief. Its full of twists and turns and unexpected drops....

On April 24th, 2022 I lost a baby. After carrying her for four months I began to envision the life I’d have with her. The life I’d have...

shambles / (ˈʃæmbəlz) / noun (functioning as singular or plural) a place of great disorder My life is in shambles. Now, I swear I say...

Today the rain called and I couldn’t help but answer. I couldn’t help but run into the pouring rain and pour out my heart as if somehow...

Loving you is easy cause you're... TOXIC. Loving you is easy cause somehow you make falling in love in the summertime feel like cuddling...

I wanted you to feel how I felt Worthless and invisible I wanted you to crush under the pressure so that I could applaud myself for being...