Letters to CMS

Dear Carter,

Finding out you were a boy was like falling in love all over again. Your kicks felt like butterflies and your heart beat was music to my ears. Although I couldn’t show it, I was screaming of excitement on the inside. I couldn’t wait to get home and have a dance party in my bed while no one was watching. I was so happy I couldn’t get this smile off my face and for a moment nothing else mattered. While I could see your fathers lips moving, it was as if he was stuck on mute. All I could think about was our life with you. Ever since I was a child I’ve dreamed of this moment. I’ve prayed for the day that I would carry someone so strong and powerful. Someone who could one day change the world. For hours on end I’ve imagined what it would be like to have a constant ray of Son-shine in my life. What it would be like to raise you to be the man society needs. A man who knows nothing but how to succeed and that’s why we will call you Carter. One who carries a load. You will carry the weight of the white world on your shoulders and remind them that no weapon formed against you will prosper.

And it was at that moment I remembered just how amazing God truly is. I was reminded of how his grace and mercy never fails. How everything he does is pure perfection and that’s why we’ll call you Messiah. The anointed one. The biggest blessing your father and I share. I can only imagine how beautifully crafted you are and I thank God for making me the vessel in which you will reside for the next couple of months. I thank God for being the one who gives and takes away because while he has taken away, he has given me everything I have ever needed. Despite adversity and everything else that has occurred, he has given me the two of you and for that he deserves all the praise.

In awe of you,

Daph the Vessel