My person

I recently lost my best friend. The person who I have depended on to be there every time I call. The person who has been through every trench with me for the last 3 years. The only person who can somewhat get my story right. Losing him feels like I’ve lost a part of me.

This is the first time I have experienced trauma without being able to lean on him for support and it has been the most difficult time in my life. I know I say this all the time but this time it’s true. I am completely alone in this. I am so lost and I can’t even count on him to be here while I self destruct.

For the first time he isn’t here to pick up the pieces and what kills me is that he’s only a few feet away. Can you imagine being in the same room as your person and feeling invisible? Calling them for help and them not coming to the rescue? How do you move on from something that’s been your whole life for such a long time?

It’s my birthday so I’ll push through but If I’m being honest I hate it here.

Daph