Thankful

As I take a moment to reflect on this past year I have come to realize one thing. I’m still here. Still living, breathing, and moving. Still learning, loving and laughing. I’m still fighting with whatever is left in me and although my life has taken a drastic turn, Im still hoping for the best. With that being said, I’m most thankful for being in the position that I’m in today.

J,

I am forever thankful for the role you’ve played through all of this. For forcing me to become a woman and teaching me that I can handle whatever life throws at me. I’m thankful for your absence. Thankful that in doing this alone I have been able to push myself harder than ever before. Thankful because you’ve shown me that I can and will do whatever it takes. But most of all I must say that I’m thankful for the gift that you’ve bestowed upon me. Our baby.

Baby,

I won’t say that I wasn’t scared at first but I now know that your timing is perfect. The truth is, your father gave me the gift of everlasting love and although he was never in the position to rightfully love me himself, somehow you emulate all the love I’ve ever needed. You give me a reason to breathe and while others have tried to shame me for you, you give me a sense of need. Now I may be unsure about a lot of things, but I know I’m greatful to be sharing a birthday with you next May.

With a Thankful Heart,

Daph the Mama